was conferencing last night with wenhu and wai till 5am. when im supposed to be studying. UGH!

woke up this morning at 12.. went down to town. met wai, fungusting, joel, cat, kel, elin, crystal.. etc etc..

im SICK... AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

today i accidently hit......... someone's balls. wasnt on purpose but i felt realllllly bad after that. ahahha.

okay. so last night i slept at 4plus. woke up this morning at 12. slept again from 2-4. and then from 5-6... goodness. and yet now my eyes are still watery. im still sleept. i've got a horrible cough. ugh.

so my fucking irritating cousin.. had to say this to HER mom.. infront of MY sister and MY mother. "whoa.. danny kor kor only come to the family when he need us horh." this resulted in a quarrel between my bro and my sis. which also resulted in ME.. getting lectures from MY mom and MY sis about how SIMILIAR i am to danny kor kor and how i will end up like him and how i should PREVENT ending up like him. stupid cousin. of all things to say. no manners. ugh.

so i got scoldings yesterday and today. about everything.. they're nuts. jumping to conclusions here there everywhere. got so pissed i cut my hand. as usual.. but they wont notice larh. never did, never will. buttt. i would like them to see it.. but not like they actually do give a shit about me.

so i cried yesterday and today. eyes all puffy. UGH.

cant breathe properly. head spinning. high fever. sore throat. runny nose.

dead.

~!@#$%^&*&^%$#@!~!@#$%^&*
AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

watever.
reality check.

oh yes.. last night at about 1am.. i was very bored at home i went down to the pool to sit.. so around 145 my sis called.. asked me to go back up.

and this afternoon before i went for a swim i sms-ed her.. and she called me back.. she was quite worried.. thought something was on my mind.. yar. i think she's damn concerned.. thought i've got sth wrong or sth.

im sick. pleaseee pray for me.
what a time to be sick. ugh. fever, cough, sore throat.. the works.
must be a reminder for me to stop fagging. ugh!

feeling horrible. cant even study. AGHHHH!

studied till 4am last night.

had 2 hours of tuition today. bahhh. then went over to pollitix. alex taught me a little bit of maths. then wai, wenhu and farny came over. and we just left farny somewhere and i think he got pissed.

owell. gonna study now. ta.

ever so gently, your spirit calls.. to all who hear.
ever so gently, the sound of your voice.. quiet yet clear.

this song reminds me of the 2001 family camp. ms low was singing this song at the balcony and we could hear her when we were down at the pool.. hrrm. then jen was lying on the floor. hazel and i thought where was she. lol..

i know i MUST study but im not.
im just slacking my life away.
FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.

AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
UGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

FUCK O'S ARE BLOOOODY SOON!!!!!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK... I WANNA TURN BACK TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lets see, joel and su an came to church today. err, didnt really listen to the sermon. was talking.. =X bitching blahblah. oh yes and we were all dressed in blackkkk today. except joel. he was wearing white. what a contrast. bahh.

lunch at nydc with evelyn and hazel. hazel's treat.. ate baked rice. oh man.. so filling. after that, went over to coffeeclub for muddymudpie!!! so sinful!!!

mission trip should be cancelled. haiyarrr. okay. then jkt and bali should be on.. i hope!!

family gathering. yarda. yarda.
AND MY COUSIN TOLD ME THAT I PUT ON WEIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! never mind the fact that she said i looked better now.

im FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.

its a saturday and im not going out... wow.

gotta go to sengkang later. baby cousin's first month celebration. gotta wear decent clothes. highest jeans longest top. hrrm. and its alll the way at SENGKANG!!! @#$%^&* so freaking far. ughh.

hahah. im in kimseng now. i've not slept a wink since 615 am yesterday morning.. damn. but.... im still quite awake. amazing. just cooked breakfast with kelly. haha. cooked hot dogs and eggs. turned out nice. hee.

lets see, yesterday i went over to kimseng to put my bag down, slacked around and went down to town to meet denise. as usual, big mirror. lol. went over to scotts for dinner.. ban mian!!! :) nice nice. then joel, wenhu and farny came over to meet us. and we took neoprints.. lol. nice nice. thennnn, went over to SOS. tried to go in but we failed. actually we didnt really try. i forced farny to go over and try since he looks quite underaged. lol. then we walked allllll the way to ms. bloodymotherfucking far can. and when we reached there, we were unable to get into the clubs cos andreas wasnt there yet.. and we couldnt err, pull strings.

so we took a cab over to boat quay. and ended up at coffeebean. and then ashley came over. and........ wenhu had a bottle of jack daniel with him. and we were so bored so we decided to open that bottle and drink it on the rocks. was alright when i was sitting down drinking and all.. but then when we proceeded to walk to ms, i got really giddy and i think i was kinda drunk? not sure.. but they're all behind me telling me of the stupid things i did when i was drunk. for example, i broke my heels. i couldnt walk properly. they say i walk 10 steps and go back 5 steps. and i couldnt walk down the steps so wai attempted to carry me but she fail obviously cos im so fat. and then i fell backwards and knocked my head. and then joel had to carry me cos i was obviously taking too much time. i kept saying, "i need to peee!!!" and "i want to sleeeeep!!!".

and when we reached ms, everyone else was there.. and i think i was still quite drunk at that point of time. from what they say, i dropped a glass, talked rubbish and haiyohhh. dunno larh. there was like 10+ people? or is it 20? everyone left around 1plus and went to kimseng. my mind was alot clearer at that point of time.. i remember running around.. playing truth or dare.. screaming and laughing. lol. had fun. but the dares were.. err? dumb?

AND I CUT MY WRIST. NO I DIDNT CUT IT ON PURPOSE. ashley had to snatch away the torn can when i was playing with it and it cut my wrist. fucking pain. i was screaming when i was washing it under the tap. ouuuuch.

oh last night we did alot of biting here and there. kissing here and there. pinching here and there. kicking here and there. hahaha. dumbbb. owell.. went over to rivervalley for supper. goodnessss! the milo dinosaur there is damn niceeee!!!! :) nice nice nice. best milo i've ever drank in my lifeee! hahaha.

then we went over to yong an park to sit by the pool and all, slacked.. talked rubbish.. bitched.. blahblahblahhhh. so many people there. hahaha. and i sat on the slide.. damn funnn! -grins-

and now im back at kimseng. going home soon i guess. i've been awake for the past 28 hours!!

friendster is like down. everyone can go in except me. ahhh. this dell computer is so bloody fucked up i swear. im in a horrible mood now. aghhh. last day of school today. sigh. damn sad. almost teared at one point of time.. haiyar. gonna miss the class, the people, the teachers and all. sigh.

im in this fucking pissed off mood. aghh.

im gonna sleep now and hope that when i wake up, i wont be feeling so irritated and AGHHHHHH. got a long night ahead. kinda dreading it.. lazy. ugh. have to get my ass outta the house by 5 before my bro comes home.

friendster is a little slow tonight.. nah. actually, its slow EVERY NIGHT. best time i like to go on friendster is in the noon. not so many people. heh. and its wayyyy faster.

was on barbie.com with tash. go check it out. LOL.

okay. so clubbing on friday night has been changed to tomorrow night.. hrrm. ms. hope i can pass off as 18. heheh. anyway im at steffi's house now. came here after school.. sat by the pool.. talked, yada yada.

oooer. she shares the same birthday with........... fortysix!!!! :) grins. haha. im nuts. friendster is a little screwed. i read a message and it keeps telling me that i've got a new message. grr. irritating.

i did 2 maths paper yesterday.. hahahha. so proud of myself. LOL. blahhhh. im booooooored. hungry. only ate fruits in school today. as i've said, im trying to lose weight.

O's are coming.
I've not studied.
I can just prepare to flunk my maths.
Fail to prepare, Prepare to fail.

AGHHHHHH.
im totally not in the mood to club this weekend, im in this studying mood and i know i do not have a single day to spare. ughhhh.

friendster is down at the moment. hrrm. everyone is getting it. the novelty of it is wearing off..

wo ai ni que gu yi, gu yi shuo bu ai ni.

im still amazed by friendster. seems like everyone knows almost everyone? scarrry. i even saw my sister's friend in there.. ha. went for a swim ALONE just now. now im all tanned. love the tan lines. heh. came back home and slept for 2 hours and woke up for hollandvillage!

school was utterly boring today. but im gonna miss school. this week is the last week of school. sigh. gonna miss everyone although i've just joined the school this year? haiyarrrr. oh.. my sis is damn nice today. bought chocolates from sin's for me.. wow. anyway like as if im not overweight enough..

gonna study now. school tomorrow. im going to school only after recess. haha.

friendster is addictive. highly addictive.
and its really a small world isnt it? seems like everyone knows everyone!! haha. and i've got one of my bro's friend in my list. its damn funny. i was surfing around and i was like.. eh enlai!! haha. he's reallllly nice and funny. he's the one always asking my brother to allow me to go clubbing with them and all. always asking my brother not to be so paranoid and let me out later! haha. and i was very surprised to see my primary school friends and all. ahhh. reunion!!!!

im a fat fat girl in a thin thin world!

wasnt late for service today!! :) haha. worship was goood. so was the sermon. wore damn decent today. eve, hazel, beks and ms low all said something like.. whoa why are you dressed to decently today? haha. if i button up my shirt.. i think i'll look like a teacher. lol.

lunch at holland after service. silly evelyn wanted western food from redbricks.. the place we used to go for lunch after cell.. when we had a cell that is..... anyway. yar. so we missed the stop. and at the junction.. i asked the bus uncle whether he could let us alight cos we missed the previous stop. buttt. the stupid traffic light had to turn green. sheesh. so we ended up walking alllll the way to redbricks. and you know what? they didnt even eat their western food in the end. we all ended up eating ban mian. which sucked totally. ughhh. nothing compared to the ban mian at scotts foodcourt. bitched.. talked.. laughed. talked about all the ex smss people. lol.


i need to study!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh yayy. mom bought me a pair of slippers. dont know why she's so nice.. anyway its nice.. i likee. but there's something wrong with it.. so we're going to change it tomorrow. i dont think my mom actually bought it for me.. i think she bought it for US. just a reason for her to buy another pair of slipper too i guess. she says my sis, her and i could share the pair of slipper. lol. but as always, the slipper will be in my shoe rack. and everyone will just forget about the slipper. so its mine mine mine! haha. dumbbb. anyway im nice too. gave/loaned my sister my white one buckled birkenstocks, my red adidas yoga shoe and my blue nike air rift. im a nice younger sister eh? lucky my mom, my sis and i can share shoes. hope my feet stopped growing already.

wahlaos. was looking through my old pictures.. as in those pictures in my com. i was like so thin? and now im so fat? ughhh. screams* irritating. i seriously need to start working out. and go on a diet or something. my sis and my mom are both so bloody thin. i dont think i've got that thin gene in me. my metabolism rate has probably been going down.. im sure its damn low now. considering how much weight im putting on. i used to be able to eat so much, and not put on weight.. ugh! can you believe it, my sis gave birth to 2 girls.. and she weighs only 47kg. she wears jeans with a waistline of 24. my mom worst! only 46kg and wears jeans with a waistline of 25. wahlaooos. unfair. okay.. looking at those pictures when i was quite thin.. im gonna be motivated to start my diet. and lose weight.. also work out more.

ahh. i wanna buy a new phone.
was on the nokia website. think i wanna get either the nokia 3200, 6220 or 6600. these 3 comes with the camera. think i will get the smallest one.. yayy. new phone soon! haha.

lala and i after my swim.. at the chalet.


okay. i look superrr dumb here. was in the bio lab doing some test? i thinkkk. haha. lala, me and dessi.


i just made myself a cup of milo. first time!!! and its damn nice... heh.

aghh! i lost my spice girls cd!!!!!!!!!!! you know their first album? i have the cover and all. but when i opened it last night, the disc was gone!!! ahhhhhh. and yes, believe it or not.. i was listening to all the bimbo spice girls songs last night on my new player.. haha. i used to like the spice girls so so much in primary 5. wayyyy back in 1997. got their albumS.. collection of books.. etc. danny and my sis used to get me all the spice girls official stuff from london. so i had the official girl power book, badge pins, shirts, dolls.. etc etc. you name it, i probably had it cos back then when i was younger.. i used to get everything i wanted. partly also cos i wasnt such a naughty girl then.. hrrms. haha. but i threw them all away 2 years back when i shifted house. hrrm. spice girls. girl power. lol. so passe. -smacks forehead-

i dont think im going out today. unless im meeting nana. feeling like a pig now. ate 2 slices of bread for my breakfast. and then for lunch, i had 2 scoops of ice cream with cornflakes. go try it.. its damn nice! i think if i continue eating so much, i will probably meet the 50 kg mark soon!

i studied last night. amen. for like an hour. did my maths. ahh. im such a slacker i think i can just fail my O levels. ughhh!

not sure whether im going out today. maybe meeting nana in the evening? not sure..

im going to study now! ta.

why the fuck is everyone around me being such an anal bitch? and no, its not me.

mood swinging. mood swinging. no mood to study. feeling pissed off.

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

so many plans. so little time. so little money. so little freedom.

start of december. - laos.. mission trip. 70% confirmed.
mid of december. - the church camp.. ( if we're going.... )
mid of december. - jakarta, bali.
june. - hongkong.

lets just hope that i will be going to at least half of these planned trips.

eh im thinking of getting a digital camera, so that i can take photos of the unwanted things i have in my room and sell them. makes sense?

eh if anyone of you wants these things.. i'll sell them to you!!
-helmut lang jeans.. size 27.
-levis super low without waistband.. size 24.
-x-large green shirt.. mens size M
-GAP shirts. all men's sizes. S..

actually... im not that excited after all to get a bose set. the bose set is now happily sitting in its box. im so lazy to clear my room to create a space for it. ughh.

im in a foul mood today. no idea why. moodswings. moodswings. mood is swinging. growlllls.

this morning, i was thinking of many many things. basically.. friends and the word trust. sometimes i think i trust too easily. i mean.. there was one incident that taught me about trust. how you can never trust the people around you. not all. happened about a year ago.. actually make that 2 incidents. one happened at around errr, last year's july.. and the other.. last year's october.. after the O levels. and btw, i dont think im being a petty bitch over here rambling about things that happened in the past. i just cant get over how i was fucking backstabbed.

UGHHHHHH. i hate myself for acting as though everything's alright.

can you count how many true friends you have?...
and i mean.. TRUE. people who dont backstab you. people who dont betray your trust. people who are always there for you. think about it. how many people around you are truly your friend.

ugh. mood swinging. i've said enough.

let see. had lunch with cat, wai, steffi and sarinah just now. we're planning an outing to sentosa tomorrow morning/afternoon. hrrm. but i've got a feeling we will just be too lazy tomorrow to get our ass all the way to sentosa.

guess what, tasha is next to me singing "give me oil in my lamp". you know the christian kiddy song? she learnt that in school. but she sang some really weird christian songs.. hrrm. must be becos her school is a catholic church or sth.

i need a tan. and a hair cut. and i need liposuction. i need to lose weight!!!!!!!

i ran away from school. haha. actually not exactly. after my chem lesson, i told my teacher that im leaving alr. and she allowed me to. haha. skipped english and maths. yayy! haha. i was studying just now on the bus.. when i saw rowyYyYy goh!!! hahaha. and that stupid girl didnt see me. haha.

oh yar. im at kimseng now.. boooring. my hair is in a total mess. bad hair day. tskkk. thinking of cutting it short.. SOON.

hrrm. got pictures of the grad night and chalet. will post them up soon. yay! and my bose set comes today.. yayyy!

wahlao. chemistry and biology practical was a total bummer. ugh. i scalded my hand like twice. and accidently spilt some acid on my haid. fuckking pain. ugh. ohh. there was this private candidate that came to my school... he's drop dead gorgeous. my goshh. ha came into the canteen and all the girls were like.. whoooooa. as said in finding nemo, "and then she was like whoooa. and then i was like whooooooa. and then she was like whooooooooaaaa." okay. he looks like some cover boy off some mag. looks a little like some of the err, energy or f4 band members? the attitude.. clothes.. style.. and the look. whoooooaaaa. veryyyy good looking. like some prince charming or something. i think he's the most handsome guy i've ever seen in my life. he gets like 9 upon 10. whoaaa. okay. enough said. haha. he's an indonesian.. chinese indo to be exact. whoaaa. lol.

im still slacking away when my Os are so fucking close. to those kind souls who read this.. please sms me or sth to remind me to study!! alrighttt?

hrrm. never thought i would actually say this.. but im kinda dreading the last few days of school. i will actually miss my school. the people and all.. sigh.

got my prelim results back. showed it to my sis last night and oh boy did i get shit from her. she lectured me for like half an hour? i almost died. she went on and on about the past shit i did.. blah. and then said some comments about how im a christian and ive got a major attitude problem. blah blah. and then as usual, compared me to danny. said how alike we are and all.. said the both of us were the only ones who attended church regularly and this is how we end up to be. danny being a total slacker in life. blah blah. as usual, after all she said.. i cried myself to sleep and was too sleepy to wake up this morning for school.

tomorrow's my O level practical. goshhh. and i actually studied a little bit. -nods- drew some diagrams and all. amazing. i was actually in the studying mood. haha.

oh yes and my mom is so nice. :) she bought me a bose set for my room. yayy. will be getting it tomorrow. my sis ordered two yesterday. one for her room and one for my room. and i was THIS close to losing that bose set. after seeing my results last night, she went on and on about how i dont deserve that bose set in my room and how they would maybe put it in the living room till i actually am serious about studying. butttt. i've already got another bose set in the living room. and i called my mom today to make her promise me that i will get the bose set in my room tomorrow. my sis actually wanted to call and cancel my order. but thank god she already paid a deposit so.. no refunds! haha. but i've got a white bose set. boohoo. wanted the black one but my sis said white to match the one outside. ughh.

okay. im off to sleep. only need to go to school tomorrow at 915!! yayy!

im sleepppy. free periods and im stuck in the library in school. bah. owell. i slept for only 3 hours last night. talked to cat from 1015 to 315 in the morning. wow. been probably YEARS since i actually talked to her for such a long time.. heh. bitched.. talked.. blah. blah.

im having horrible cramps in school now and im in a horrible mood. ahhh. stop bugging me!!!

just talked to jen on the phone for like almost 2 hours? missed her! havent been talking to her for ages! we were talking about old times.. ( no, we arent that old.. but owell, the past. ) and we were talking about all our plans to travel and all. poor girl fell recently. sounds so painful. hope her wound heals soon!

i think my mom is so not going to allow me to stay over anymore i think. and its all going to be the sunday's newpaper fault!! go read it if you have not. some quotes from there..

more girls from single sex schools who stay overnight at each other's homes tend to take the opportunity to explore themselves sexually or physically.

its not surprising that these girls want to explore and satisfy their sexuality. since the other partner is not male, these girls feel safe that they wont get pregnant.

dr toh advised parents to be more aware of these pyjama parties.

quoted by teens.. "there are so many crooked ones in our school.. if you're not crooked, you're weird." ... "they were called butches but now they're called bungs." WOW.. THIS IS FUNNNNY.

WTH. this 13 year old girl has 50 g-strings AND 20 string bikinis.. im speechless.

okay. when i turn 18 i wanna get my bike licence. and then get a vespa. so cutee! :)

i slept at 4am last night. bah. felt so tired this morning. oooh! wasnt late for service today. :) was sms-ing last night. everytime i fell asleep.. a reply would come in. was checking my sent items.. i sent a total of 159 messages since the 8th oct. im so dead.

talked to ms low after service till about 1plus. talked so much rubbish. remember the primary school game we used to play back in smps? "kick open side by side"... i was teaching her that. and we were doing it in the breakfast hall. how dumbbb. heh. did many stupid things..

going to study now. toodles!

i actually bought eightdays just now. just to read about hollandvillage and babyboom. haha. i only watch baby boom once in a while with.. TASHA. her favourite show. she watches hollandvillage, known to her as the fat fat aunty show. babyboom, the four babies show. phuachukang, the curly hair uncle show. and friends, the mommy's favourite show. and of cos.. powerpuff.. hi five.. cow and the chicken.. nemo.. snow white.. toy story.. blahblah. i think we actually have a collection of all cartoons/kids related shows at home all on dvds. you name it, we probably have it.. cos danny gets them reallllly cheap from overseas. say about 5 sing dollars for a dvd? how cheap is that? haha.

lemme give you a rundown on what's going to happen next week.. this is totally dumb! rourou regained her ability to walk. yaming hits jingjing. (bloody bastard) tianyang told yangyang that tiancheng was the one who raped rourou. yanyan falls for her manager. dahua wants a divorce from lingling. wanwan returns.

oh yes.. there is like this sealed section on the mag titled "sealed section. for adult eyes only".... CRAP. haha. the story about the male stripper was kinda interesting. and there was this section on sex toys? thats all. wow. SEALED. dumb.

okay. bed time.. toodles!

oh yes and did i mention that i wanna get the gucci rush fragrance? its damn nice. =D

just got home. told my mom i'll be home by 10. but... anyway she's asleep. went to bukittimah for dinner with wai. i didnt know we'll have other plans so i wore as though im going downstairs for dinner or something. shirts and shorts. the hor fun was reallllly nice. :D went over to holland after dinner.. met denise. walked around.. bitched.. drank.. bitched again.. talked.. blahblah. kinda fun basically.

now, im going to study again! woohoo.

studied till 4am last night and i woke up at one. ugh. wanted to sleep till 3 plus. but my mom had to draw the blinds up. okay. im going to be a nerd for the next few weeks. got so many plans after my Os.

on the day of my last paper, we're going to book a hotel room.. go there.. have fun.. play. bitch. blahblah. probably not going home for 2 days after that. haha. and then there's the laos mission trip.. and maybe the indonesia trip.. jakarta, bali. and then hongkong in june. woohoo.

dinner with mrs szetoh and mrs goh was great. it was as though we were friends or something. talking about the past and laughing. it was damn funny. was kinda bitching and catching up too. remembered how mrs goh used to scold us.. and apparently there is this girl from st marg's.. my year. last year sec 4 express. she got MARRIED... at the age of 16. what the hell? freaking scary. marry a relative from india or something. (she's an indian larh. duh!)

after which, met cat, kelly, elin, li ang, ping, edmund and raj. they were all looking for gowns and all. in the end, we ended up at kimseng. met caroline and steffi there.. talked.. blah blah. came home. was supposed to be home by 10 and i came home at 1130. mom's a little pissed.

oh. im going to study tonight!!!!! =D

oh no! this sounds totally dumb but i just realised how stupid i was to set a dinner appointment on a weekday because it would mean not watching hollandvillage. -smacks forehead- and i've already missed it once this week on wednesday becuse jacob refused to let me watch it while i was at his house. ugh. and i cant watch it today either!!!

yayyyy. i just talked to danny kor kor ! :) he was supposed to come over but luckily, he had just finished some sq training course and went back straight home cos he's really tired. and since he lives all the way in siglap, he's lazy to come over. yayyy. at least i wont be out when he's here. and he'll be bringing me out after the 21st november. yayyy. =D and he bought he stuff from newyork. will pass to me soon. yayyyy!

my eyes are closing. grrr. woke up at 6am this morning for school. didnt have the "go to school" mode switched on so i kinda lied to them that i had a headache blahblah. and i couldnt fall asleep after that! ugh. now im freaking sleepy and i have to get ready to go out soon! im going to be a grouchy girl today. i think its pms or something. growls.

and i brought two packets of chewing gum to school that day. left it in the pocket of my bag and some greedy ass bastard took it outta my bag without telling me. till i was looking for it and he went like. " oh i took one out just now, and everyone wanted one.. so no more already. who asked you to leave it in your bag. haha. " motherfucker. ugh. irritant. i mean you dont take something outta people's bag without asking? and besides.. im not his good friend or something.

ugh. im just in this super grouchy mood now. hope it will be better later. and i've gotta wear decent clothes later since im meeting my ex school counsellor and ex school discipline mistress. oh lord save me.

having difficulty breathing now. ugh. hate it. adds on to my grouchy mood. hope i wont get an asthma attack again soon or something. whats more, i lost my inhaler. cant find it.. all i know its somewhere in my room.. somewhere.. somewhere.

danny's back!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) yayyy. he may be coming over to my house for dinner tomorrow night but tomorrow night im meeting mrs szetoh and mrs goh together with wai for dinner. ugh. of all days. sheesh.

im going to start mugging. and i mean it. owell. after tomorrow night. yar. i will mug. and i wont go out on saturdays anymore!!!!! im going to be a nerd and just revise all day long. do exam papers till my head spins.

got slight food poisoning in school yesterday. puked twice in school and had a horrible headache. went to see a doctor with my friend. lucky i saw christina otherwise i will just get lost in bukitmerah. the doctor was really nice btw.

hate taking my medication. ugh.
went home yesterday, slept from 4-7. 8-615. goshhh. the one hour interval was for hollandvillage. -smacks forehead- lol.

went to town after school today to meet cat, kel and elin. went to jacob's house after that to give him tuition. giordano?!.. lol. hahaha.

my sis bought me this christian book. titled touch points for students. its kinda interesting.. i read up the homosexuality part. lol. no no, i am not sexually confused.. oh got back my results. failed my science. passed the rest. im so screwed. ugh.

haiyaaa. i was kinda upset in school today. kept whining to my friend.. poor lala.

anyway.. after school. went over to jacob's house to give him tuition. haha. laughed so much.. and we took dumb pictures!! lol. errr. powderrr?! heh. inside joke. and i saw oscar having a shower!!! thats jacob's dog by the way. haha. so cuuuteee! :D and he has a new tank of puffer fishes. and oh boy, they sure are greedy fishes. so small and yet.. wow. haha.

took a cab back just now cos i was running late and my sis didnt know i was actually at my friend's place.. ate chilli crab for dinner! lol. damn nice. but i think i probably gained like 2 kgs or something. owells. school tomorrow. ugh. dreading it..

oh yes!!!! fag in malaysia is so fucking cheap. its like singapore dollars $2.70 for a dunhill menthol light hard pack!! and what the hell? we are like paying 8.30 for a fucking hard pack. growls. and they have dunhill menthol light in small pack over there. maybe we should write in to dunhill and suggest that they sell them in soft pack too so that we would buy them more often instead of only weekends?

today was a looooong day. went to church in the morning.. sermon was a little dry. perhaps it was because we didnt have our bibles with us? and during service, evelyn and i were discussing effective methods of hair removal. haha. damn funny. and waxing is the most effective. shaving is the fastest.. and without pain! hair removal creams are.. EWWW. disgusting.. firstly, they stink. secondly, they arent effective.. at least not for evelyn and i.

holland after service. developed my photos!! haha. yayy. nice. after which, i went to jb with my mom, aunties and cousins.. eeeyer. dont like that place. try walking around the whole day in kitten heels. i almost died. and then there were peddlers selling sex toys. damn gross. walked around.. ate seafood.. etc etc.

i cant wait for school tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D

just got home.. wow. today was a hrrm.. how should i put it? well spent saturday WITHOUT going to town. :)

yesterday was my school's grad night thingy. was fashionable late.. like half an hour? lucky i only missed the speeches. actually i caused my friend to be late too cos i picked her up.. ha. food was good.. nice place actually. everyone looked very different! haha. everyone was asking me why i wasnt wearing heels.. anyway im still taller than some of them without the heels! haha. took so many photos! smiled till my jaws hurt.

ohhh. we formed this like fagging group. haha. after food and photo session.. about 10 of us will go downstairs by the riverside to smoke. lol. damn funny. after that, went over to pasir ris. so fucking boring! dessi and i cycled around the area with our friend's SPOILT bicycles. we were commenting that we probably had sex with the bicycle or something. lol. dumbb. and we fagged and ate.. and ate and fagged. boooring. and when it was bed time, everyone was having such a hard time deciding where to sleep and all.. everyone was just everywhere. dumb. my friend's head was like on my tummy and i didnt even dare to move incase i wake her up. slept around err.. 6? and everyone woke up at 9 but i continued sleeping all the way till 10+..

and at noon, lala and linda came! haha. yayy. and we went to rent bikes and cycled at some err, tampines park or something? damn fun.. i kept screaming when the slopes came.. went back to the room after that and i go changed, swam with some others. booooring. swam like 5 laps and left cos it wasnt very comfy swimming with a two piece. went back.. slacked around.. talked rubbish. had the bbq.. the usuals.. good food.. blah blah blahhh. went to the beach.. kinda thought alot there. was thinking about mannny things. sigh. but i had fun at the beach with them.. running, talking, etc. :)

being there again brought back many memories. i remembered 23rd june this year. the many things that happened at block F.. laughing, stories.. etc. and thats when i liked twentysix. sigh. and everywhere reminded me of him. the pillar. the path. etc. sigh. and then i was just thinking about lewis? and sheryl's chalet in last year june? how we were trying to get rid of lewis. haha. and how cj was so bored she was reading comics while we were talking. and how that air con seemed to stop buzzing whenever we threw a pillow at it. also remembered wai's family's chalet last year. haha. her little cute cousin..

owelll. enough said. took a train then a cab back just now. enjoyed myself during the train ride talking and bitching with my classmates. :) that route reminds me of the time when i used to stay in simei and take a train to city hall, change a train to town. then take 14 to school. ah, memories.

okies. toodles. bed time.

-yawns- i just woke up. i think i slept for like 12 hours? but im still sleepy. ahh. shall go get changed now and go for a swim now.

chalet tonight and tomorrow night. shouldnt be staying over tomorrow night. maybe going over to ms. but im feeling a little lazy. maybe i will just stay over at the chalet for 2 nights with no alcohol and no fag. oh man.. i hope i can survive.. i will larh. -nods-

okies. swimming time! toodles!

i got myself a friendster account!! haha. its amazing how almost everyone knows everyone?.. as they always.. its such a small world!! haha. if you know me, add me yar? coordinatedpink@yahoo.com

bath time!! toodles!

tomorrow's my school grad night thingy. and im not even excited.. bah. im gonna be wearing a halter with a SKIRT. gawd. and either flat slippers or heels. not sure yet.. and im either using my sister's prada or coach bag.

and after that, i have to go all the way to pasir ris. eww. the thought of it totally bores me. and i cant even fag tomorrow. wth.

im having a birthday party on the 1st of november. at ridout road's macdonalds!!!! okay. that was just a joke. tasha is actually the one having a birthday party. haha. mine's all the way till the end of the year. abour 3 months more? and no, im not having a party at macdonald's. still deciding what to do for my 17th birthday this year. hrrrms.

i wanna pierce my tongue!!! soon!! =D

haha.. i was looking through my mom's shopping bags and in it i found an evian bottle. lol*. haha. wai, jacob.. -ahem ahem- haha. we were drinking evian water this evening too! what a coincidence.. haha. =D

as they always say.... love is blind. hAaAahhAahAhAhh.

yayyy. mommy bought me a new blouse and a pair of slippers. the slippers were actually something she liked.. so she got it in a size larger so that i could wear it too!! :))) i love my mommmmmy! oh yes, my mom doesnt wear those aunty-ish slippers/heels. we do infact share like 3 pairs of heels? lol. yayy. new slippers!! i likeee. got 2 pairs of new slippers this week. haha. im a happy girl and i love my mommy. although she may be a total bitch at times.. that explains why my sis was a bitch 2 nights ago.. also explains why sometimes i can be a total bitch. i think its in the genes.. hrrms.

anyway. now that my mom is back, im going to hint to her that im hungry.. haha. and then she'll cook for me! yayyy.

im hungry and im all alone at home. :(
and i cant cook to save my life. actually i can.. just a little. but i detest the cleaning up part. eww.

just got home.. feeling hungryyy now. bah. wai's just next to me now.. haha. no one's at home!! yayy. we just came back from bukitpanjangplaza. haha.

we were at jacob's house giving him maths tuition.. haha. only maths paper one.. father, we have to do paper two. please make sure you study. and do the papers that you have.. if you dont know anything, we'll teach you the next time we see you okay? and if there's a party.. please do remember to include us in your thank you speech! :) hollandvillage was nice today. haha. damn funny. i kept laughing..

still feeling hungryyy. ugh. the last thing i ate was a plate of rice during recess and its like 10am? growls. enough said.. haha.

i wanna go out!!! haha. this saturday how arhs? should i or should i not go clubbing? but my Os are so freaking near!! hrrrms.

no school tomorrow cos im not re-taking my mother tongue. woohoo. plans for tomorrow, wake up around noon.. go for a swim ALONE again.. then i'll study. -nods- i kinda like swimming alone.. makes me think. too much sometimes.. hrrms.

go hear P.I.M.P on radio.. its damn funny. cos its goes.. "but a bitch cant get a dollar outta me.. blahblahblah.. that im a motherfucking p-i-m-p." damn funny. cos those are like censored..

oh i went to ikea ALONE just now. whats with me. -smacks head- was forced to go there.. cos my sis needed some paper and some other things.. so i looked like a total aunty, in my sailormoon uniform.. holding an ikea plastic bag. gosh. enoughhh!

oh yes, before i forget.. HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) -smuackkkk-